Life update.

Hellooo!

So I’ve been in the thick of it with school and balancing life. It’s all just pretty much school lately. Been I’ve been on a self love, self care, health journey too – which is pretty rad. Some days are really hard and some days it feels easy.

I’ve lost about 10 pounds, and lost more inches then I thought I could! But recently I’ve made the decision to skip the scale. It’s always been this thing with me where I either have a good day or meh day depending on my weigh in – and if I know I’ve been off the wagon – I dread it. So am I really going to give this object that kind of power ? The answer is no.

I’ve really gotten into my yoga practice too again which I’ve been loving! I don’t have the strength I used to but I’m working on that. I’m in the process of relearning and gaining strength for the crow pose and a headstand. It’s hard but I am addicted.

As for beauty, I have a couple new favs which I’ll be reviewing as soon as I have a chance to really sit down. Some bb creams and some cheap and high end face serums!

As for now my plan is to scroll through blogs and catch up, light a candle, and soak in my tub with some lavender Epsom salt.

Hope you guys have an amazing morning/day/night xo

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Adulting and Other Things

Helloo out there. I feel like it’s been forever since I’ve blogged. But life has been a bit hectic. I’m in my second last semester of nursing, and between class and placements, things have been a little tough.

I still love nursing and am so passionate, but it’s so time consuming and takes a lot of brain power and physical exertion. My classes are challenging but I feel like I’m genuinely learning so much.

I’ve also lost 5 pounds! I joined weight watchers a couple of weeks ago and have increased my daily activity. I even feel better. I’ve also been mediating again and occasionally even through in a bit of yoga. It’s quite nice and I’m working on balance of self care, career, and living.

My moods have been up and down and sideways. But it’s balancing out again. A couple weeks back I had a major up swing and felt on top of the world. And then of course following I had a major fall, and dealt with my depression side. However I made it out and am feeling a lot better.

Life gives us so many obstacles to overcome even when following our chosen path. And I guess that’s half the experience, seeing your true strength.

We are all capable of so much.

Goodbye 2017, Where are you 2018?

In less than 2 weeks we will be in the new year. I can’t believe that, I felt like going into 2017 I only saw huge mountains to climb and now it’s already 2018 – what happened?

I am an avid YouTube watcher (it’s addicting) but one of my favourite motivational/organizational channels is Lavendaire. I also listen to her podcasts which are really soothing in the morning – seriously her voice is so calming. But she talks about a year in review a lot, she even sells a package that has you break down the year and build goals to the new one. I didn’t buy it, but I looked into my own ideas for my “year in review”. I found a simple guide online – here – and it asks four simple questions. But do not think that the fact that they are simple, that they are easy.

It was such an experience to do this. It took me about 20-30 minutes, but I feel so good and so motivated. So basically it is:

  1. what have you overcome/accomplished this past year?
  2. what have you learned?
  3. how do you feel about the past year?
  4. what’s next?

It does give you more details on how and what to focus on. But very easy overview.

It made me realize how much I’ve accomplished this year. With the mental health struggles sometimes, it is so easy to forget or overlook your accomplishments but this was that voice “no – look at all you have done, be proud” – and honestly? I am proud of myself.

What it also did was enable me to fine tune my 2018 goals. I’ve come away more from resolutions and make more goals to focus my energy on. I feel like resolutions are a maybe. I could or could not accomplish them and that’s whatever. But if I set goals, it’s something I can continuously work towards. I do however have some easy resolutions that are fun and non-demanding but would do me well in the long run.

So here are some resolutions:

  1. get into hiking
  2. re-start my yoga practice
  3. meditate daily
  4. journal daily
  5. listen to my motivational podcast 3x/week
  6. grow my faith

* They are helpful and important but I’m fairly satisfied with doing them occasionally (is that bad?)

So here are some of my goals for 2018:

  1. I am going to get healthy for myself
  2. I am going to lose 100 pounds
  3. I am going to graduate and get my nursing license
  4. I am going to grow my self-love and compassion
  5. I am going to start my positive habits again (ex. meditation/yoga)

These are things that are really important to me and that I will always have to work at but things that will greatly improve my life, my attitude and my health.

Nursing Student Life

They say everything is about balance, and that couldn’t be truer. But there are some challenges we face that really through us for a curve ball on the balanced path.

I’m about to finish up my first year of becoming an RPN (registered practical nurse), also known as a licensed practical nurse in a lot of places. I am obsessed with this profession, I love my future career – but it is definitely a lot of work.

I know I’ve posted before about my hourly commitment for school being equal to that of a full time job, but I struggle with turning off the “work” part of me and enjoying everyday life. For me I prep for school/placement, do homework for school/placement, and actually attend classes/placement. It feels like there is no off switch, but I am trying.

My weekends usually are swamped with school work too, so it makes it a little harder. But I prioritize. For me school and my mental health are tied at first. Then family + boyfriend for second. Then everything else. I tend to be more anti-social during the school time, just because I love my friends but I have so little time in a day to balance. And with my mental health being first that means incorporating down time where I don’t have to think at all. Family is next because they fill up my good vibes and I always feel better after being with my family and my boyfriend. They don’t expect me to be anything but myself – good and bad moments.

What I’m trying to work on (as I obsessively watch other nursing students / healthcare workers youtube videos) is finding an exercise routine. Not only is it good for me physical but mentally as well. It calms, and releases those “feel good” endorphins. It is also good for coping with high stress. So I keep looking for something I like, and am actively working towards that.

Any workout ideas that work for you – please let me know!

 

Well School Is Something

Hello again!

I have been gone for so long because my school semester started up in early September. And oh boy has it been a whirlwind. Don’t get me wrong, I am absolutely loving it (except pathology) but every accomplishment and learning moment is a moment I’m closer to becoming a nurse. Something I no longer have any doubt – that I’m meant to do.

I have 5 classes, and 1 placement. In total I have school about 30 hours for the week not including breaks, and about an additional 10 hours for homework, assignments, research, etc. So it’s a full time job at 40 hours a week. Most students in general will say higher education is a commitment, but my fellow nursing students will tell you by the end of the day (if possible) naps are your very good friend.

So what’s my point, other than life’s busy? Self-care, self-love, self-compassion.

My self-care, with a lot of effort, has stayed fairly solid. I sleep when I can in the day, and I go to bed no later than 9pm because I’m up early everyday. I practise meditation, but I’ve adapted to a more concise version – I find often I don’t have 10/15 minutes to just sit (even though I should make the time). I will count my breathes on a 1, 2 cycle – 1 inhale, 2 exhale. I will practise alternating nostril breathing before bed (block right nostril, breathe in; open right nostril, block left nostril, breathe out) – this usually puts me right out. I have also been practising gratitude. Where I’m in placement there are a lot of clients who need a lot of personal care, and some who have no support outside of themselves. It fills my heart to help them, and reminds me how wonderful it is that I do have that external support systems. And what’s more gratifying then getting to do something you love everyday? Every weekend I prep for the week: set alarms, reminders, plan out homework sessions, and review class content.

With very mental health specific self-care parts, I set reminders to shower, and shave on Sunday. I then ask my family to remind me if I forget or don’t feel up to it – shower every night and quite honestly to brush my teeth some days. It is so easy when we are in high stress, or crazy busy that we forget or drop things that already take us more effort to do – but these habits are essential to feeling good.

Self-love and self-compassion. I’m a work in progress on this. I don’t even bat an eyelash when I feel I can help someone, but when it comes to myself – I bat my eyelashes a lot. So I’ve been working on and researching some affirmations to start my day and have even recently set an alarm about mid-day to remind me to breathe and try out a positive, compassionate affirmation for myself. This section I will keep you posted on.

I could talk for days, and I will – I’ll just try to break it up a bit in my blogs.

If you have any questions about school, organization, self-care plans, pretty much anything – let me know and I will happily explain what I can and give tips on what I do.

That’s all for now !

School.. after school?

It’s been awhile since a school related post, but really that is what drove me to start writing here. I graduated in April of this year with a dual degree, and still find myself looking for that long awaited career and a dash of passion. That has not come.

So I’ve decided to take it upon myself, and believe that going back to school for what I really love – helping people – is the right choice. I am going to be a nurse.

So look forward to continuing money savvy tips and maybe some health tips along the way? Who knows.

All I know is I am excited for my future again.