I can’t believe I’m saying this – but I love running. It is hard, very hard, but so rewarding at the same time. I run in a group which helps when I feel like I can’t go on, and it keeps me active. I’m going on my third week of this new passion of mine, and I haven’t missed a day yet (I run 3x a week).
I got a nice pair of running shoes, the Under Armour Bandits 2 and they are actually great. They have good support, and a fair bit of cushion which is extra helpful for my achey joints. Plus they look amazing.
My first couple of runs I didn’t track but I’m using an app called “Runkeeper” now and it’s also great. It gives me my time run, distance, pace, and elevation. So far my longest run has been 2.21 km (about 1.4 miles) and it was just under 10 min per km. So no I am not fast at all, but I do it – I run.
I love learning about running and better techniques, so if you have any tips or input let me know!
So I took a break for the last little while because I’ve been struggling. Struggling with joy, happiness and loving myself. But I am back with a fight in me.
I’ve touched on it briefly before but I deal with bipolar disorder, and anxiety. Usually I can kick it’s butt but sometimes like everyone I have it kick mine. So my point? I started a side blog. It will track my daily dealings with my mental health, my improvements in physical health and it is pretty much an open journal to what makes me happy and better.
I will absolutely be back on the horse with these postings, but if you want to check in on my journey my blog is https://bepositivelyloved.wordpress.com/
Everyone deserves happiness, sometimes you just have to fight for it.
It is 11:48 AM. And ladies and gentlemen – I feel so productive.
This morning I deep cleaned my car, which trust me, was very needed. I got a car wash, filled up washer fluid, filled up gas, cleaned the interior, vacuumed, and washed the windows. I had coffee with family, and listened to an uplifting spiritual podcast. This was not only productive, but included self care.
Self care is something I am continuously working on, sometimes it doesn’t exist in my life and sometimes it is in full force. When it is in full force, I feel like I can handle anything. A little self-care in the morning sets you up right for your day, and it is really so individual. Some like the gym at 4:30 AM, some like to wake up and pray, or cook breakfast or meditate. There is seriously so much variety and no WRONG way of doing self-care.
My personal favourites are waking up and listening to a podcast as I wake up and stretch. If I can I will scroll through Pinterest for some bible verses that uplift me or read over some I’ve written down for myself. I cuddle with my dog and make tea (currently cannot do coffee because of acid reflux – it has been an adjustment). Sometimes I will do a little clean of the kitchen for instance, and then settle in and figure out what I need to do for the day. I’ll check my calendar app for major things I’ve written to remember and then go from there. Ideally I would love to do yoga every morning, but sometimes that just doesn’t happen. Self-care is what works for you, it is not a judgement activity.
What are some of your favourite self-care that is realistic for you?
I went away for a week and then had to play catch up in school. But I am back.
Vacation was lovely, but when I came back my lips experienced something new for me; raw, red and cracked. It was horrible, and even my side creases were cracking – quite painful if you have never experienced this before. So I went into Shoppers to see if they had a remedy (I had been resorting to Nivea at night, helpful but not what I needed). One of the girls there suggested Roc, not a brand I’m very familiar with, always thought it was for much older cliental. HOWEVER, this is not the case. They have some really amazing products that are meant to heal the skin and infuse it with moisture. I tried the Roc Enydrial Repairing Lip Care balm (I think they refer to it as a lipstick but it is definitely more of a balm). I’m obsessed.
This is what their website says
“helps reduce 44% of lip dryness. Its formula protects and moisturizes dry, chapped or damaged lips…Formulated to minimise the risk of allergies…Non comedogenic [meaning doesn’t clog up pores]”
To me this all sounded great. And after using it for literally only 2 days, my lips are far from what they were – so I believe the claims.
It was a little much for a lip balm, but if you read into what you are getting, and understand that there is much more helpful and useful ingredients in this than something like lip smackers, the $7 CAD is worth it.
After a long day of work or school or both, mentally we all need a way to unwind and relax for the night. I have found it essential for my mental health to follow a routine, and no I am not always great at doing it but when I do I feel so much better and sleep so much deeper. So here’s what I do on my perfect unwind:
Declutter. Meaning I wash the dishes or put them in the dishwasher, I put away food or clothes, or just throw out the garbage. Very minimal but just enough to leave me with that productive/clean feeling.
Tea. I am a coffee drinker. But tea at the end of the night (my favourite being peppermint or chamomile) is just a nice way to have something warm without a lot of extra calories or caffeine. It mellows me.
Yoga. I do some very light yoga, some heart opening stretches, and some basic positions like downward dog, child’s pose, and anything that I feel will feel good or be relaxing. I maybe do 5 minutes – just enough.
Faith. I don’t talk about it often but I find a lot of comfort in my faith and definitely if you don’t than you can skip this. But my relationship with God has been a good thing for me. So I will just go on Pinterest or my bible app and find some passages I like or enjoy and write it out in my journal.
Meditation. I will do this right before I sleep, because quite honestly it usually makes me fall asleep. I have a guided meditation app and it has thousands of meditations to choose from and categories too. I usually pick a sleeping themed one, thats about 5-10 minutes and do some deep breathing and visualization. For me it’s the perfect end to the day.
I’ve touched on it before – that I’m super passionate about mental health. I love learning and knowing different disorders and how it effects an individual. Today I wanted to touch on Bipolar Disorder and some coping with manic episodes.
A lot of the key things involve prevention, but just like any other illness, episodes are not always preventable no matter how hard you work and how healthy you are. So what do you do when you feel that energy and panic rushing in?
Stop. Realize this is an episode and not you. It can feel like you’re losing it, but you are not you are totally ok. Deep breathes.
Reach out. Let your support team know what’s going on. Whether this be your doctor, your family, your friends, whoever is your support – reach out to them.
Assess. Is this manageable? If you can bring yourself down and ride it out then just hold on, if it is worse then let someone know you need more help
Then the coping begins:
Bubble bath. This instantly brings peace, light a candle or some aroma, make huge bubbles and keep it warm but not too hot. Bring a water bottle beside you too because hydration is huge.
Water. Drink it. The best thing you can do is be good to your body while you’re riding out a high.
Meditation. Ok yes it will be extremely difficult but even 3 minutes of zen will help calm the onset.
Yoga or walking. Really any form of low impact exercise. It helps to sweat it out, but you don’t want to work yourself up.
Writing. Write it out. When mania or hypomania hits it can feel like a wall of a million thoughts hit you at once. Start to write it out, it will not only slow you down but allow for some room to form in your head.
To-do lists. You may feel like doing everything NOW but you are not your most productive or focused. So keep a list of stuff you feeling like you NEED to do and re-assess it at a later point.
Avoid caffeine and simple sugars/carbs. Chamomile tea is amazing. And avoiding the sugars and simple carbs will help your body not to spike in blood sugar making you feel sicker. A great mindless munch for a sweet tooth is almonds. (Maybe some chocolate or yogurt covered too).
Ride it out. If you have been diagnosed for awhile you know this feeling. You know it will pass and its a big wave right now but you can do this, ride it.
In the end, help yourself, and reach out for help from a support group.
It’s been awhile guys, but beauty reviews are back! I got a mia 2 (face cleansing brush) about a year ago and it came with the first aid beauty ultra repair cream intense hydration. I am obsessed.
It ranges from a small tube (about $15 CAD) to a large jar (about $37 CAD). For what it does and how it works, it is hands down worth the money. I am learning to invest more in what products I use on my sensitive acne prone skin, and a product under $20 that is a miracle worker – I’m good with.
It says it’s good for all skin types but oily, however I have oily skin and use it as a night time cream. For me this works because I wash my face in the morning anyways and overnight my face gets extra hydration help. It has oatmeal, shea butter, and other ingredients that provide the ultra moist skin. It lacks parabens, and sulfates which is an added bonus. It is fragrance free which is huge for sensitive skin and allergies.